free and easy down the road i go

hellllloooo, where has the time gone?? school starts in less than two weeks, that's so crazy. usually i dont mind school but i have to take poli sci and bio this semester which wont be fun, plus two history classes which will be a toonnnnn of work with the professors i'm taking. plus i miss being at providence so much and i still wish i could be back there instead of at ccsu.

i can't really think of anything exciting that's happened lately. aunt helen died, but i wouldn't exactly consider that exciting. the funeral sucked, my grandpa had such a hard time. it's hard when you see someone who's always been so tough and guarded break down like that and i just wanted to make it all go away for him. in a way, i hate getting older because life gets so much more complicated. the funeral was just a huge reminder that my grandparents wont be around forever. i know how lucky i am that nanny and bumpie are both healthy, especially considering how close i am to them, but at the same time i know they wont be around forever. i've always been really close to them and i always go to them before my own parents when something is wrong and i cant imagine life without them. it scares me because i've never really had to deal with death before. i mean, people in my family have died, but no one that i have been really close to. i was really close to aunt helen when i was younger, but she's been sick for so many years that it sort of distanced me from all of it. as much as nanny drives me up a wall sometimes, i know i'll be lost without her.

i applied for a job at the hospital because disney just isnt cutting it anymore. i'm so broke, that month and a half of not being able to work after the accident drained my savings and the new car didnt help either. i dont even know how i'm going to buy books this semester. i have $100 still on my barnes and noble card but i'm sure that wont even cover my bio book. john's got to start looking for a job too because his unemployment runs out in november. money sucks. see, it would be so much better to be 10 years old.

but its ok because i'm happy, really happy, and its such a nice change.