all we are, we are

I have an interview at a daycare on the turnpike Friday at 4:30. My life would improve in so many ways if I got this:

- a set schedule...seriously the worst thing about my job is not knowing what i'm working until four days before.
- no weekends! no nights!
- its on my way to school so i wouldn't be using all the extra gas/time to get to disney.
- i wont be spending all my money on things at disney!
- it'll look better on my resume.

I am officially one week into the semester and have not skipped any classes! I'm also keeping up with the majority of my reading which I've never done before. I went to the gym today and burned 600 calories, yay =) What a productive day! Hopefully I can keep this up.

Sooo...the weekend! Saturday was 6 months for me and John. He got me a cute little bear thing that talks and I love it. And we got our picture in a photobooth at the mall which I've alllways bugged him to do with me. We spent almost all weekend together, which I loved, because I never see him during the week anymore. I don't remember ever being so happy. Even my mother keeps telling me she's never seen me this happy. She even told Erin that she's glad I finally found someone so perfect. And yes, he's perfect. =) I seriously seriously seriously love him so much and I feel like I'm crazy for being like this because it's only been 6 months, but I can't help it.

I feel so bad for Uncle Gary. Well I do and I don't. I mean, I totally understand where he is and how hard it is for him right now, but I almost can't feel bad because he got himself into this. Just like I got myself into my mess. It's only been 2 years since I came home and had to tell everyone why I was home and face everything I'd gotten myself into, and he's going through all of that right now. The first six months of being home were absolute hell, between the hospital and the rumors and everything..it just sucked. And I wish he didn't have to go through that too, I wish he could just concentrate on getting better without worrying about all that crap.

John totally made my night with his John Cena news. I love when he gets excited like that. He's changed so much since moving into the apartment and starting work...and I'm so glad for him. He deserves to be happy more than anyone I know and it's about time it started happening for him.

I'm super tired and going to bed at 9:30...that's a record! =)

we're feeling alive all over again

I'm really cranky right now and all I want to do is curl up with John and watch tv, even if it's wrestling. Or take a super hot bubble bath but I can't because there would be WWIII chaos if I attempted to use the bathroom for more than 20 minutes. I wish crazy hormones didn't come with being a girl.

I'm sad that Heath Ledger died and I just found out Brad Renfro died too. I had a major pre-teen crush on him when Tom & Huck came out, mostly because he looked like Taylor Hanson. It kind of makes me appreciate my own life and the fact that money doesn't buy happiness, apparently. I always tell myself that my life would be so much better if I had a lot of money to do whatever I wanted, but I'll take my life and the people in it over wealth and fame anyday.

Lifehouse is coming to CT, NY and Boston over the course of a week's time and I'm pretty sure I'm going to the CT and NY shows, so that's exciting. I can't wait to see them again and I really hope they play From Where You Are. Yaayyy.

I still can't breathe right. I had such a hard time lifting all my books at school today, it was pretty pathetic. And walking in the cold...not fun. Today is Wednesday and it was supposed to be "much" better by yesterday, but apparently it's not. It's frustrating. I can't yawn or sneeze because I lose my breath before I can actually yawn or sneeze because it hurts so bad.

I have nothing important to say, as always. BUUUT! This is why I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world:

FedEx08John (5:18:41 PM): guess what
hopesofdreaming4 (5:18:44 PM): what!
FedEx08John (5:18:46 PM): i love you

...but wait, there's more!

hopesofdreaming4 (6:50:19 PM): now i'm in a bad mood
FedEx08John (6:50:33 PM): awww babe
FedEx08John (6:51:59 PM): did i mention that i love you?

Yep...pretty sure he's the best =)

First "real" day of school today...and it wasn't all that bad.

My first class was the best, I've had the professor before and I really like him, but the class is big. My bio professor is loopy, I mean, really, really loopy. Same with my Medieval professor. He cracks these jokes that are supposed to be funny, but the entire time he was going off-topic and trying to have a semi-normal sense of humor I kept wondering which drugs he'd been on and for how long.

Heath Ledger is dead. =(

Now 10 Things I Hate About You will never, ever be the same again.

I started class today and went to the bookstore after and managed to get all my books plus a surprise for John all for $409.00. Pretty good, considering it would have cost me about $700.00 at the CCSU bookstore full priced.

new year!

For real, I'm keeping up with this now. I have a new computer, yay!

I can't remember ever being happier than I am right now. My life feels so complete and so perfect. Excluding the fact that I am still poor, still at home, and still in school. Things are good at home, minus the occasional issues that come up. Things with John are perfect, I can't imagine how they could be any better. For the first time I'm not looking for something more or something better...he's everything I want and more, even. He keeps me calm and he keeps me in perspective of things. He is really so good for me and I feel like I'm a better person because of him. He supports me and helps me and is always looking out for me. I hope he's as happy with me as I am with him, and I am pretty sure that he is.

So I've been sick for almost a month...just a cold, or so I thought. Saturday morning I started getting this weird pain under my right boob, like a knife going through my rib cage. So my mom and John made me go to the ER yesterday and it turns out I actually have a legit thing wrong with me. The fluid between my lung and rib cage has been pushed out from all the coughing, leaving my lung rubbing against my rib cage. The fluid is what keeps the lung from actually rubbing on the rib, so yeah, it hurts pretty bad. I can't breathe normally, cause if I breathe too deep I get that stabbing feeling. I can't lift or move in certain directions either. Yay for that.

Once this goes away, I'm totally making myself go to the gym at least four days a week. My eating is good, so all I have to do is go to the gym. I've actually lost some weight in the last couple months, yay for me.

School starts tomorrow and I swear I'm not going to skip as many classes as I did last semester. I have good professors and good classes and my schedule is better this year, even though it doesn't leave me much time to work. Speaking of work, I need a better job. At least a job that pays more than minimum wage. I love my job, I just don't get enough hours during the school year and I wish I made like 5$ more an hour.

Things to look forward to:
*6 months with John on Saturday...and the day off!
*Keith Urban/Carrie Underwood show next week!
*Matchbox 20 February 18th!